I lived alone and was forced to work to afford living by myself for I go to university in the morning and work at a bar at night and I have a boyfriend and have not left anything haram, except that I have done it, for I have completely adapted the Western way of living. I know very simple Arabic and I am very beautiful and I participated in a beauty queen's contest in New Zealand and I won in the city I live in. I am now preparing to enter a bigger contest in New Zealand, and I have become a supermodel on the cover of many inappropriate magazines, and through all this, I was visiting a family of Lebanese origin in Australia and they were watching a halaqa for Amr Khaled about 3ffa (modesty, purity, chastity) and it had the website address displayed on it, and I completely fell apart b/c I felt he was speaking to me. I ask if Allah can still accept me.
Dr. Amr Khaled replied that Allah will always accept those who come back to Him.
After two days,
"I can't believe that Allah would forgive me ,I can't stop crying, I need to learn how to pray to Allah"
She asked Amr Khaled about Al Quran.He then posted some cassettes of Syeikh Ajami and Syuraim and Mishari to the following address.
"The address is: 28A Cornhill St,North East Valley, Dunedin, New Zealand"
After few days,
"Salam aleekom, are u ok? I have a big surprise for you.. I learned sorat al naba.. I can say it without looking to quran.Im gonna pray with it"
Then after few days,
"Salam aleekom ,I learned surat youssif , I thought that I will not but alhamd lellah"
Sara insisted to leave the haram things. Surprisingly, she managed to leave one after one by taking only 2 days for each.
"Salam aleekom ,I wear heejab ,and left my boy friend, and I left the competition"
After about one week, came this message. Sara was ill then for that one week period.
"Salam aleekom, really I don't know how to thank u. I wish if I can live more to do something for Islam, but it seems God wants something else. Anyway alhamd lellah
Sara was diagnosed with a late cancer. That was the cause of Sara's illness before. The only treatment was surgical. She was confused at first whether to go back to Lebanon or to have operation in New Zealand. She decided to have the operation. Here are few messages from Sara to Amr Khaled and his wife after the diagnosis.
"Salam aleekom, do you think that god will forgive me? Do u think that I will go to janna? or will God put me in the hell??"
"I love God , I am talking to him now, hope he loves me too .."
"I want my mother to call me before Friday. I'm sure she will be sad, I hope she will come and see me, I didn't see her since 1997!!!
15 minutes before the operation:
"Salam aleekom, I'm going to the hospital now, I'm glad that I repented to Allah, put on my veil before getting to know about my illness. I've been living 21 years away from God but since 3 weeks earlier I swear to you that I left my boy friend, and I wear hijaab only for Allah, honestly...I don't know muslims except you and the visitors in the forum, so please pray for me and for my mother. And please bear witness for me in front of Allah yaumal qiyamah that I have truely repented to Him...
I'm sorry…but Sara is dead...
September 19th ,2003
(Sara was prayed upon in one of the mosques in Dunedin after the Jumuah prayer and buried at local cemetery)
p/s: I'll try to get info regarding the hospital in which she had her surgery done, as well as 'bout the location of the cemetery, whenever it is feasible to do so, iAllah.
Namun,pertemuan sebulan itu terlalu cukup bermakna.
Cemburulah terhadap Sara…Kita telah hidup bertahun-tahun lamanya…
Namun kita masih tidak mengenali Allah…
Masih tidak dapat merasai tiupan-tiupan dan belaian-belaian kasih Allah…
Awal Rejab – Awal Sya'ban…
Berakhir dengan Sara dipanggil menemui Tuhannya…
Menemui sang Pencipta yg merinduinya…
Dalam keadaan Sara merindukan dan dirindukan…
Pergi selama-lamanya…
but seems God wants something else…"
Sara,walaupun harapanmu tidak kesampaian…
Namun ketahuilah…Allah sekali-kali tidak akan mensia-siakan niatmu yang ikhlas itu…
Ya kawan-kawan, begitulah kisah percintaan sebulan Sara dengan Tuhannya…
Tidak cemburukah kalian???
Kawan-kawan,
Setiap dari kita punya kisah cinta tersendiri dengan Tuhannya…
Maka usahalah menjadikannya kisah cinta terindah dalam hidupmu…
Dan sentiasalah pohon padaNya agar mengambilmu menjadi kekasihNya…
Ya…mengambilmu…
Kawan-kawan,
Adakah kalian berasa hairan dan takjub dengan kisah Sara???
Tidak perlu…kalian tidak perlu begitu…
Tuhan yang berbuat begitu pada Sara…Dialah Tuhan yang sama yang berbuat begitu ratusan tahun yang lalu
Pada Fudhail Ibn Iyadh…Dialah Tuhan yang sama yang berbuat begitu pada
Abdullah Ibn Mubarak…Dialah Tuhan yang sama yang telah berbuat begitu pada ramai lagi manusia di abad 21 ini…
Demi Allah kawan-kawanku sekalian,
Sara selama hidupnya telah mengamalkan gaya hidup bebas…sebebas-bebasnya…
Tidak ada perkara haram…melainkan Sara pernah melakukannya…
Namun, 3 minggu sahaja berkenalan dengan Tuhannya…
Sara ingin melakukan sesuatu untuk Islam…
Ketahuilah…Sara bakal dibangkitkan pada hari kiamat nanti(insyaAllah)dalam
Keadaan diganjari atas niatnya itu walaupun tidak sempat melakukannya…
Kalian lupakah hadith Nabi:
"Barangsiapa yang memohon kpd Allah dgn ikhlas utk mati syahid,
maka Allah akn menyampaikannya kpd cita-citanya itu walaupun dia mati di atas katilnya"
Sara bakal dibalas setimpalnya atas niatnya yang ikhlas itu…
Dan mari lupakan Sara seketika…
Kerana marilah kita ingati Dia…
Ya, ingatilah Dia... Tuhan Sara, Tuhan sekalian alam…
"Dan tidaklah hambaKu datang kepadaKu sejengkal, melainkan Aku datang kepadanya sehasta, dan tidaklah dia datang sehasta,
mencintai kalian,
11.50p.m
p/s: mari sama-sama kita tadah tangan berdoa untuk Sara selepas membaca entry ini...jazakumullah..dan plz doakan sy yg lemah ini..yg amat memerlukan doa kalian...terima kasih.

